Sorry, this isn’t a picture of myself or of anything cute and gyaru. You can scroll past this and I wouldn’t be offended. I guess this is more for myself, just to get something off of my chest.

I have borderline personality disorder, but we already knew that. It’s also coupled with a multitude of other things, one being sexual disorders/dysfunctions. It’s one of my many issues that hinders me from having a healthy, and long relationship with another person.

I don’t want to be alone and I envision myself being married and having a family someday in the future. I just expect unrealistic expectations from people to accommodate to my issues and my disorders and my dysfunctions.

I’m getting nauseated just thinking about all of this. I’m not a normal, functional person, and I’m scared that I just won’t ever be.

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2. princessejuliedenetzach said: I want to get married and live happily ever after, there are guys who loved me a lot, but I’m such a monster when I am in a relationship that they didn’t stay. I loved them so much though. I guess the more I love them, the more I yell at them. :(
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4. thewhitesharkcafe said: There are people that will understand. I know how you feel, but you shouldn’t write off having those things.
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